Thursday, June 01, 2006

Raama yaake ishtu kroori …..


Blog Shuru Maadiddhe maadiddhu , aadre yaav kaaranakke blog shuru maadidhno adanne marethu mikkella vishyada bagge thale kediskonde.

Baraha annodhu namma manassige naavu hidyo kannadi anthaare ….haagadroo nange yenu beku antha naanu artha maadkotheeno eno antha bareyodanna shuru maaadiddhe, Aadre life eshtu busy aiythu andre ondh kshana koothu nam jeevanadalli enenu aiythu , yaaru bandru , yaaru hodru, Naav kalakondiddenu , padakondiddeshtu antha avalokana maado ashtu purusotthu namage illavaagi hoythu.

Heege jeevanada intha Naagaalotada madhye ondh nadu madhyaana nange ondh kshana koothu hinthirugi nodo avakaasha banthu , Balcony’ya railings mele dhairyavaagi kaalu chaahci koothu haaro aa baanaadigalanna nodtha avugala jothe manassu kooda ellello haari hoiythu……”Don’t go where life takes you , take Life where you want to go “ ello odiddhu nenapu. Nan attitude towards Life’na , Swaabhimana antha kariyodha , athava Moorkhathana annoda? Prathi hagaloo- raathri obbale dina saagiso magala bagge yochane maadadhe sose obbale malagalu hedarutthale antha yochane maado daddy’na nannavaru antha kareelo athava….bettadashtu Preethi idroo madve yaavaga antha maathra kelabeda anthanno nan huduga’nna nannavaru anthanlo ? career important’o …illa madve ‘no?

Sari Yaavudu beda…..just tell me ….sariyaada samaya barutthe antha allivaregu naavu kaayuvudhu sareeno….athava jeevana naavu helidha haage nadeebeku illavaadre adakke arthave illa antha Hata maaduvudhu sariyo?

Can we impose solutions on life?

Eshto baari parihaara enu annodhu namage gotthidru, naavu enu maadalagadha haage handicap aagtheve, adhe nam Choice irabahudu…still, I wonder, Why don’t we do something such that we get the desired result out of life…may be , fear of losing what we have….????!!! (Rubber band theory you see!)

Here I come , this is what I wanted to understand ….why am I not able to walk out of Rajiv’s life even though he is not able to convince me yet as to why we cannot get married ASAP. May be, I myself am insecure that I do not want to lose him.

Priya ( my colleague) insists that I have my options open…..actually look out for other options & not consider Rajiv until he does something about marriage. Should I do that? Is that right or am I being too harsh on him, thumba materialistic anslava Life’u….naanonthra swaarthi ansalla aaga, haagantha should I let Rajiv walkover me like I am a doormat? No, never, he may not be that harsh , but still, hypothetical aagi aadroo, hangenaadru aiythu andre , what do I do?

Naanonthara kall bande, I know I can face life however it comes….nange feelingsU, affiliationsU illa aadru, aa bhanda dhairyada mele , why should I let myself be seen in such a situation , beku androo, beda andru…ivatthu , Priya , Uncle, elroo madve bagge nan thaleli hula bittiddaare…tell me why should they worry about me, avarenu nan nentare- ishtare, avarige nan mele iro concern-gaagiyaadru naanu maryaade koduvudhu bedave ?

Ishtakku nannaliro dwandhva…Rajiv’ge nan meliro preethi, more than that I know he needs me, & I need him too, its like I couldn’t have asked for more when it comes to marriage, there are so many people who get married having no choice, when I have got what I was looking for, what’s wrong in waiting …annodhu nan prashne….aadre estu dina ? naanu shabari alvalla…..